So, it’ s been a year.

When I decided to try songwriting, I promised myself I’d pursue it for a year. It was — more or less — a leap of faith. I had no idea if I’d have what it took to keep it up. I had no idea if I’d have what it took to even be decent at it. I had no idea.

As of today, I look back and I believe I have found my niche.

This is not an easy thing to admit. For a long time, I’d thought I already had “found my place.” I thought I found it in classical music. In jazz. In folk music. And I thought I’d found it in writing, first in technical essays, and later, in short stories.

Looking back, I see a big difference.

I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again: writing was work. As a child, I never imagined that I would become an author. Not until my creative writing prof in college mentioned it had I even considered the option. I put in long hours at the computer working to wrestle the words where I wanted them. Eventually, it made sense… Even though most days felt like I was pulling my own teeth…

Music was always my first love, even when I came to terms with the fact that I didn’t have the drive — or physical prowess — to become a concert musician. The first thing I notice about a place is the sound. The first thing I notice when talking to someone is the cadence and song in their speech. I go through my days listening to an internal radio, and break into song on occasion…

See? Big difference.

Looking back, I realize that every little step led me here. Writing a song feels as easy as breathing. Now I walk through my day listening to lyrics-in-progress, to melodies I’ve discovered in this crazy brain of mine. There’s work and sweat, yes, but it’s not like pulling teeth.

Big. Difference.

So, today, I look back and realize that this is it. This is worth so much more than one year.

It’s worth a lifetime.

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2 thoughts on “It’s been a year

  1. Congratulations. When something fills you with joy, and doesn’t feel like pulling teeth, that’s the real thing. It doesn’t mean it’s going to be an easy road, but when you have true love and passion for something, it makes all the difference. I am still unsure where the road I am on leads to, but I can tell you that there’s music ahead, in one way or another. So glad to have a kindred spirit like you around 🙂

    1. Likewise! It took me a while before I finally figured out what I was supposed to be doing… I have no doubt that you will find your path, too. 🙂

      Sent from my iPad

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